What do you do

When your back up husband is engaged?

LOTR

Vile...
Who could possibly sit for over 12 hours watching Lord of the Rings....? Ridiculous

Lonely Thursday Night

It's like some times I realize that I'm kind of alone in this whole thing. Even you aren't as much a part of me as I wish you could be. I mean I don't expect Christmas presents from people...but you're supposed to at least do something for me right? I sound like such an ass hole saying that but it's like...if you can't afford something why can't you be old fashioned and write a poem or a stupid guitar riff or something stupid....Put some heart into whatever.... You can see the time I take in making your Christmas good why can't you just do something nice for me?
People are soooo curious as to what you got me for Christmas....Nothing. I sit here and my friend is talking about all the things he did for his wife for Christmas...that's bull shit. Why can't I be appreciated somehow for once? On top of it... you keep going to the bar or drinking with your friends. That's pretty much more important to you I guess.
I want to branch out. I want t be desired somehow. I'm not.  I want to feel a zest for life again not wonder when you're going to pay me rent next. If you will. I hate that I am so fucking in the dark about your money. I've been starting to give up on this relationship. How do you come back from this really? Especially when you're so stubborn. You care way more about your friends than me.